Omg your first entry.... #IFeelSeen. Honest, I thought I was the only one. Often thinking I was broken, too much, overthinking, it's all in my head ... You know the drill. I notice changes in emergency from the most subtle to the most heartbreaking. Only recently have I begun to speak to them when I feel them. Often being gaslit or having the table turned on me for questionning the shift and asking for an explanation. The work I need to do is to get to the place you are. To learn to not chase those who don't want me a part of their lives, to reflect and accept that I don't fit at all tables, to learn to be okay with myself and know that it truly is not always me or something I've done for people to move on. I believe there doesn't need to be a big falling out or some catastrophic event to end friendships or relationships. It can be organic and all of that is okay. What I don't understand is the dishonesty around it, the gaslighting, the hiding, the ghosting and the purposeful lashing out to cause a fight or give people a "reason" to not be close anymore. I am fine with organically growing apart but still cheering eachother on from afar. Why does it seem like everyone feels the need to light the powder keg in fire on the way out the door?
Omg your first entry.... #IFeelSeen. Honest, I thought I was the only one. Often thinking I was broken, too much, overthinking, it's all in my head ... You know the drill. I notice changes in emergency from the most subtle to the most heartbreaking. Only recently have I begun to speak to them when I feel them. Often being gaslit or having the table turned on me for questionning the shift and asking for an explanation. The work I need to do is to get to the place you are. To learn to not chase those who don't want me a part of their lives, to reflect and accept that I don't fit at all tables, to learn to be okay with myself and know that it truly is not always me or something I've done for people to move on. I believe there doesn't need to be a big falling out or some catastrophic event to end friendships or relationships. It can be organic and all of that is okay. What I don't understand is the dishonesty around it, the gaslighting, the hiding, the ghosting and the purposeful lashing out to cause a fight or give people a "reason" to not be close anymore. I am fine with organically growing apart but still cheering eachother on from afar. Why does it seem like everyone feels the need to light the powder keg in fire on the way out the door?
Thank you for sharing all of this, Ashley!